Real

I want to upload shit

to make some noise

To say

Hey ! 

I know y'all missed me

Bitches

But I won't 

Because that's not noise 

That's just another absurd

In the virtual dance

Of hearts and don'ts

I know I exist

I don't have to prove that to anybody

I know I'm real

I don't have to earn that feeling

It's already deep inside me 

Living

Beating

Wanting me to exist more

But I do it anyway

Because I'm a chimpanzee

Governed by outsiders of me

Structured

Have to and Must

I never knew how to tell them apart

I'm here you're there and 

a message

Won't make distance disappear.

I'm bound to my loneliness

Of keyboards and lo-fi music

I'm so mental right now

(Demential might add)

I don't even know what's right

Should I reply? 

Should I show my humankind?

Should I pretend I'm blind?

Real is the wind

From your breath

Real is the water

That you transpire

Real is the earth

That kisses your feet

Real is the fire

You set me on